Posted by snapper on June 15, 2004, at 18:24:19
Hi, everyone, I am finally going to get another round of ECT treatments , starting tommorow....hopeful but still terified at the same time! My panic and anxiety are so bad that I am virtually sleepless and I can't take anthing tonight to sleep. Drs. orders. I know that my depression had pretty good remission when I had my first series about 3 years ago but it did'nt seem to do much for my anxiety disorders-why should it? I am seriously scared that I may have a panic emergency while they put me out to do the procedure and I have thoughts like 'what if I try to pull out the IV or I totally freak out while they are trying to administer it. what if thought suck! I know they are going to give me several meds to induce muscle relaxation, etc. I know that my fears are just anxiety but it is killing me. Today I had a pre-ect workup...Blood workup, EKG, etc and I could not relax when they were drawing blood and it was sheer agony trying to be still during the EKG...they must have thought I was a freak.I can barely eat and have almost constant mental agitation and full body tension and I feel like I am going to lose it most of the time, but I know this is not an option.I can't stop my thoughts and feel like this is going to be my life. (mental water torture) what if my anxiety is so severe that they can't do the procedure? I will quit rambling and thasnks for listening. I just need some serious peace of mind(even if temporary) Has anybody ever been like this. I also fear that I may die during the procedure. help!!! anybody
snapper
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