Posted by lifeworthliving on June 9, 2004, at 23:13:44
In reply to Re: therapist vacation, posted by Asya on June 9, 2004, at 22:21:43
> I can totally relate. It feels so unnatural and weird on some level to think constantly about this person that you really don't even KNOW. I have all sorts of fantasies about how she might fit into my life in the future, i.e. I will become famous and thank her when I win some huge award, her daughter will marry into my family so we'll be related, lots of weird stuff. DOES THIS REALLY MEAN THERAPY IS WORKING? Just wanted to add my thoughts and reinforce what you are feeling. I am very cold and distant when I go in so I have never expressed my fondness to her -- do u think she knows?
i can't believe she doesn't know. you must have a good poker face. when i'd see my therp out in public i'd never know if i should turn around and run the other way or if i should knock her over like some excited dog and start licking her face. i've never experienced anything like this. if this is transference (my therp won't label it anything) it works. i know that i take better care, etc because i want to please her. deep down i love it that i feel like this. i'm glad i can ask and say whatever i want. another part of me always has to put it down... be mean to me. :( i think i've got one heckuva a therapist and we work well together. it all bugs me because i think the only reason i go to counseling is to be close to her. it just so happens that the side effects (the things happening in my life) are fantastic. if i hadn't met her i might have missed my own life. when i think about all the things that had to happen in order for me and my therp to be here today, it gives me the shivers. i think we were meant to be... or is that just more transference??? i'm glad to know y'all can relate. i've been in twice weekly therp for two years and this attachment isn't less but i think i deal with it a little better than i used to.
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