Posted by shadows721 on June 5, 2004, at 15:49:34
In reply to Re: Somatization Disorder, posted by Somaticide on June 5, 2004, at 12:55:11
I felt from reading your symptoms it reminding me of myself. I had symptoms before memories. Marriage was my trigger. I suspect that this abuser was brutal as was mine. There is a reason for the memories coming up this way. It's because it was just too much for a young child to handle. I can also suspect that this man abused most of your siblings from their symptoms. They are really suffering the aftermath. I bet as with mine they are very afraid of this man unconsciously. Even though someone is dead, the mind thinks they are still living an a threat.
I can only imagine what the burning is from. Water is what jumps in my mind, but only you know the truth. It will go away when the memory is resurfaced and dealt with. It sounds like an extremely painful memory.
I too suffer from these plaques of symptoms and its hard to tell the real from the unreal. They feel real, but they don't show up on tests. It's like a hidden enemy. In a way, it is. It's the abuse from the past that was forgotten that is playing hell with the body. I suspect you and your siblings are dissociative as well. There is a part of you that knows exactly what all this is about. I suspect this is a very very young child. They are using the body as their message board to you. It takes a lot of therapy to get to the point where you are ready to listen to the truth. It's just so sad to hear. There's a very brave child in there with a story to tell the adult you. You see there were no words to communicate what she went through for you. There was no protection from such an evil man.
My therapy started from symptoms. I went, because of all the depression and anxiety. But, I had to start talking about me and not the symptoms to start the ball going. Hypnosis opened the flood gates to Hell on Earth type of abuse. The suicide thoughts played out too, but they replay of the threats of the abuser - "Tell and you will die." This is going to be some very difficult work. It feels like walking through a dark forest with land minds.
Please keep in touch.
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