Posted by DaisyM on June 1, 2004, at 19:11:33
In reply to Therapy Writing Assignment, posted by DaisyM on June 1, 2004, at 15:31:17
What would make me happy?
I've thought about this all day and all the usual stuff jumps to mind: winning the lottery, loosing 50 lbs., having a personal maid and cook, unlimited powers to heal and the ability to fly.
But when I get serious, I realize that I really do want to figure out the answer to this question in a very real way. I'm tired of wishing for stuff I can't ever have. So I know I won't be able to cure the illnesses that have visited my house. And no maid will ever stick around with three boys. And where would I fly to anyway?
What I think I need to be happy is to have someone consistently offer a safe haven from the trials of the world. To listen to me, to hold me and the nurture my soul. Someone who believes I can do anything and is still OK with me not doing it. Someone to fill the huge void I feel in my life.
It feels strange to write that, being a married woman with children. It feels like a criticism of my husband. It isn't meant to be. He does the best he can, loves me fiercely and thinks I'm a great mom. He is just too sick these days to offer much support, which, of course, isn't his fault. And my children filled that void for a very long time. But they are growing up and don't need me as much.
Ultimately, I guess I want my confidence restored that I will find my joy again.
poster:DaisyM
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