Posted by cubic_me on June 1, 2004, at 6:45:06
In reply to self injury, posted by Pandabear on June 1, 2004, at 0:26:08
I remember your post about the first time you tried to throw up and wanted to respond, but didn't feel like I had anything much to add. I really do think it's good you told your T about it, and you should do again, then you can get to the bottom of why you feel like doing it and maybe come up with some solutions. I have tried to make myself sick only once, but I've wanted to many many more times, and it's a horrible feeling both before and afterwards, and like you say, it's not something that you want to become a habit, but it is an easy thing to slip into slowly and without much control (like I did with self injury).
When you feel anxious and like throwing up, is there something you could do to distract yourself. Being around other people can be a good distraction for me, or you could go for a walk or play computer games that take a lot of concentration. When I know I'm likely to want to make myself sick I try not to eat very much, then I can convince myself that even if I tried, there would be nothing to throw up anyway.
You said that you are worried about your dad finding out, and I can see why - the best way of not letting him find out is to not do it. I know that this is easier said than done, but the quicker you work through this, become less anxious and lessen the urge to do it, the less likely he is to find out.
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