Posted by Jai Narayan on May 29, 2004, at 20:00:45
In reply to Re: Antigua - EMDR experience? » partlycloudy, posted by antigua on May 28, 2004, at 17:42:52
> I remember/relive feelings of how I felt when the abuse was happening. I haven't been able to go any deeper into the abuse yet (still pretty deep, though). It's amazing but I actually feel how I felt as a young girl.
***Yes I relive the experience as well. I can see very clearly all the details of the experience. I can see the whole scene as if I was there. I can look around and see the details...like in a dream but it's my memory that is stored in my brain.
It's vivid.
I do cry and feel the same feelings but the ending is different and I feel liberated from the oppressive ramifications that have dictated my life from that moment on.
The incident becomes intregrated into my thinking and I see it fully....my entire brain can think about the incident.
My T guides me through the negative feelings that were attached to the incident and any of the negative impressions I was left with about myself....
> The major things that have come out for me are that I discovered I had more than one abuser and I found my "evil" twin who I mentioned in another thread.
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****I didn't see the other thread. What do you mean the "evil" twin?
> I don't really understand how it works, or if I'm even doing it right. I told my T I wanted to stop the other day because I didn't think it was doing any more good and the next week I discovered I had two little girls instead of just one. I was fighting it, I can see that now.
***I never fight it....I am so sick of being oppressed by the problems that I jump in fully and engage the problem...because I know it will change.
Right after I may have doubts about it changing but it always changes...I become lighter and see my self and life with a new view.
I have changed so much since I started.
I am a lot calmer, feel and look healthier.
I am so much happier.
poster:Jai Narayan
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