Posted by babbgal on May 25, 2004, at 19:54:58
I have a job interview tomorrow, after not working for almost five months. I left my last job in January with the assistance of an attorney...I filed an ADA claim because of my diagnosis of bipolar II and ongoing, awful harrassment from my boss. She would say things to me like, "I don't know how you'll be able to work another job with your mental problems." The good news was that I got a financial settlement and got out of there. (And boy, seeing the look on her face when I told her I had an attorney was priceless...she thought I was so wimpy, she had no idea...)
Though my husband has been great and technically we can go a few more months before I MUST start working, starting sooner rather than later won't hurt. So I have this interview tomorrow, just a preliminary one with an HR person at a software company. The thing is, I can ace interviews. I'm not trying to sound smug, but I'm a good interviewer. If I want to land a job, I can. In a way, I'm nervous and scared about landing this job, even if it turns out to be the job of my dreams. I'm jumping three steps ahead, terrified that it will turn out like my last job...what if the people turn out to be horrible, what if they screw with my head so bad that I will become cognitively impaired...what if, what if, what if.
I have done this kind of work before (financial analysis) and had great job performance. I did this kind of work at my last job and it was a nightmare. How can I focus on the positive -- my good skills, my personality, my MBA -- and not doom a potentially very good situation by thinking it will just turn out to be my last job? Help. I'm scared.
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