Posted by Pandabear on May 23, 2004, at 12:06:35
Hello to all. I wanted to update you and let you know that I have been doing really good! My therapist is so pleased. For those of you that have been following my posts you will remember that I have been in pain for about a month now and have been to afraid to go to the doctor...well, not this past friday but the Fri before that, I went to work in complete pain and was forced to go to the doctor. I was in so much pain, i thought i was dying it hurt so bad. I went to a GYN..I had never been to her before and her whole manner towards me was like nothing I had experienced before in the past and she was very nice. Even though I was not very comfortable, the way she treated me made it a lot easier. The outcome was that I either had a kidney stone,IBS, or a cyst that burst inside me and that if after my next period I didnt feel better, she would refer me to a gastro doc or to get an ultrasound. WELL...guess what...
For a while I was getting kind of depressed because I knew that I was going to have to get an ultrasound or colonoscopy or something like that and I was getting really nervous..the pain wouldnt go away...THEN, this past thursday it went away! I am just about to finish my period (sorry for being so descriptive) but I really think that it was a cyst that burst. She said that when a cyst burst, the body has to absorb the extra fluid and until then you remain in a great deal of pain...so i think this was my problem. I am just so glad that it is resolving.
My therapist was pleased that i went to the doctor and I did it without medication. It is weird that whever she and I talk about something, something that I need to be doing..I usually get the strength to do it...its so weird. But, going to the doctor like I did wasnt planned...I just had no choice. Now, I am at a good point in my life..everthing is going great. My question now is...HOW LONG will this good feeling last? Dont people that are Bipolar not stay like this for long...? Is it when something goes bad that I will come down? Or will I just naturally go back down again? Im not going to worry about it because Im thrilled to be doing so well..I was just curious. I was depressed for so long but I know that these feelings of being so happy dont last when you are bipolar. Could I be experiencing my hypomania or whatever it is called where you are realy happy? I have a reason though to be so happy. I wouldnt label me as being manic...hypomanic maybe? who knows..I just know im so happy....What stage does it sound like im in..am I just at a level state of mind...not up or down? Just trying to figure myself out...:) Have a great day!
poster:Pandabear
thread:349873
URL: http://www.dr-bob.org/babble/psycho/20040522/msgs/349873.html