Posted by tabitha on May 23, 2004, at 1:17:57
In reply to Re: Wrong therapy for depression? » tabitha, posted by Dinah on May 22, 2004, at 22:51:02
Oh, I probably won't ditch her. I think I'd quit the group first.
Thanks to whoever reminded me depression is a mix of factors. I'm just not wanting to do a med change now is all, so anything that says meds aren't the answer is appealing.
Racer, yup I think you grasped the central issue, I'm not getting validation since I started the group. Last session after more of my griping she started validating. But she's still telling me she disagrees with my perceptions. So it feels insincere, but of course I wouldn't want her to lie to me (would I?). We talked about me quitting the group, but I'm not really ready to make that decision either. It would feel like giving up on ever being able to tolerate closeness with people. Maybe it will get easier.
To Aphrodite (I think, I'm sorry I'm not remembering who said what too well), who thought she was defending her rightness, I don't think she has issues with being right or wrong. Actually she's finally got me convinced that nobody is right or wrong, we all just have different perceptions and different filters. It's my twisted perception you're picking up. I hear her trying to make me wrong, but she isn't. She explained it all pretty well once-- she's trying to challenge my criticial parent, but I'm so identified with those critical thoughts, I feel as if I'm being attacked. She always suggests I check out my perceptions with the group, but I'm usually afraid to do that. I don't want to open myself up to possible negative feedback, since it seems to be hurting me so much. Or it really is a huge mindf***, but I doubt it. I have those thoughts, but honestly, I trust her more than that. I don't think she's working as well with me as she used to, but she's not an awful therapist.
I hope I'm not frustrating people by complaining so vigorously, then defending her. I'm confused right now. I'm having a harder time with therapy that I've had in years. Thanks for the support.
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