Posted by lonelygirl on May 6, 2004, at 19:34:02
Well, this is it… Tuesday will be my last session with my psychologist. Since he is at the university health center and I will no longer be a student there as of next week, I will not be able to see him any more (even if I were going to be living in the area, which I’m most likely not). It’s very sad to me... He is the only person at the entire school whom I will miss. He is the only one to whom I can talk. Seeing him is one of the very few high points in my life. As I’ve (sort of) gotten to know him more over the course of the semester, I like him more and more, and not just as a psychologist; I wish I could “hang out” with him, and talk about him instead of me.
Of course, it’s kind of silly, since I know I am nothing to him. I am just a square on his schedule, and once I leave, he will close my file and someone else will get that square. I don’t doubt that he “cares” about me in some generic sense, as the person in his office during my appointment, but once I am no longer his client, he will have no vested interest in me. I don’t blame him or criticize him for this; I know it’s the way it’s supposed to be. Still, I am sad about it.
I’m planning to give him a card, which, as some of you know, I’ve been stressing over the past few weeks. I will probably give him this one (with a note including a “thanks for making me feel not quite so alone”):
http://www.despair.com/loneliness.html
...or possibly:
http://www.despair.com/individuality.html
Of course, now I just have to figure out what to WRITE on the card! I’m not really a very mushy or emotive kind of person, but I want to express some sense of the level of admiration and appreciation I have for him.
I will miss him : (
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