Posted by crushedout on May 5, 2004, at 10:42:42
In reply to Re: What happened today (very long) » crushedout, posted by Fallen4MyT on May 4, 2004, at 19:51:18
Thank you, Fallen. You really make sense to me. I've decided I'm just not going to cut anymore. It's not an option. I admit I've had urges and fantasies all night and morning since I made that decision (so the cutting is not *only* about manipulation, I don't think, although I think it started out and has primarily been about that). I'm also feeling very, very depressed and suicidal. But I'm ok -- I won't kill myself, I promise. I just think about it a lot.
This morning has been hard but I guess I'm coping as well as I can.
> I am not sure on this but she does care...she wrote back and didnt have to...MAYBE?? AND I AM NOT SURE...BUT...MAYBE you are sunconciously trying to manipulate her with the cutting.....I think it is worth thinking on at least....TRY doing as she said....the 3 things before a call to prevent a cut. I mean she dosnt want to lose you as a client but cant keep you if you arent helped at all and it sounds like she feels she may not be helping you...can you change that for you...not for her????? T's wanna help not hurt their clients...Youre sooo smart take a look back see when you started cutting and why then like a detective....ask yourself a lot of questions then share the answers with her...Hon , I care and I think this may help...also she should not show shes frustrated but IS human and my T does at times like when he askes if I saw a doc yet on an illness and I say no.
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