Posted by antigua on May 4, 2004, at 14:35:37
In reply to Getting worse before getting better in therapy, posted by tinydancer on May 4, 2004, at 11:42:48
tinydancer,
I've always felt that I had to be tough, to not let anyone inside. I used to cry at the drop of a hat (sad stories, babies, even commercials!) but I can't seem to do that anymore, I can't reach way inside anymore and let it out. It's good to let it out, I swear it is, because it helps you heal. And you are healing. It's horrid when you're going through it, but if you can feel, you can let go. It's when I don't feel, when I'm numb, that I know I'm in trouble.For me, I am terrified of accessing the anger I know that is there directed toward my father for what he did to me as a child. I am afraid that if I let myself feel the anger, it will overwhelm me and I will never recover. Intellectually I know that's not true, but it does keep me from feeling it. So, yes, the tears will stop, but they are helping you know, so try to hang in there.
All my best,
antigua
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