Posted by cubic_me on May 4, 2004, at 10:51:25
Things have been tough for me recently, and I've hardly been able to express any emotions to myself or anyone else except for cutting. I went for 3 weeks without therapy because me and my T's diaries have been so busy, and it's another 2 weeks until my next appointment. I'm meant to stop seeing her at the end of this academic year, and I think she is preparing me for termination by trying to convince me that I'm getting better and brushing off any comments about how awful I feel. I just wish I could express something of how I feel to *someone* but there seems to be no words or tears inside me and all I want to do is dig deeper into myself to distract me from what is inside for a moment and to let me see that I really am in pain.
I have so much collage work that I'm getting behind on that I need to get this sorted, and I can't stand this pain inside. My T has never suggested phoning between sessions or what her policy on this is, and my fear of bothering people would stop me phoning anyway.
grrrrrr.
poster:cubic_me
thread:343193
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