Posted by gardenergirl on April 25, 2004, at 15:59:48
In reply to New here -- gratitude (longish), posted by Aphrodite on April 25, 2004, at 9:27:52
Nice to meet you. I was really struck by your comment about feeling like you were deep in debt and didn't want to look at the bills. First, I have been in debt like that before and know that numb and yet quietly desperate feeling.
But I also get what you are saying about therapy. I did not start therapy until age 37, and I too found there was much more under the surface depression. Wow! You really described how I felt avoiding it for so long. I always knew that I needed help but was unwilling to face it until this year. I'm so glad I finally did.
I hope your therapy continues to be helpful for you. I too found it to be unsettling at first. It stirred so much up and I was thinking about it all the time. That has settled down some. I've been in therapy now for, I'm guessing about 8 months or so. Now I am finding myself somewhat dependent on my T, but in a good way. It was really freeing to admit this to him the first time. And I am feeling much stronger and better--to the point that I could terminate, I think, if I wanted to, but I am enjoying getting to understand myself better. I'll probably continue as long as I am eligible (as long as I am a student).
Glad to hear from you! Take care and jump in whenever.
gg
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