Posted by holymama on April 23, 2004, at 12:23:35
Does anyone have thoughts on how bad a person's depression has to be before hospitalization or what I should do at this point. I've been dealing with a month long depression, a breakthrough depression in my bipolar treatment. I hesitated to even call my doctor about this one, as I feel there is a valid external reason for me to be depressed and was even feeling too down to call him and get healthy. Finally I gave in and called him too days ago. He suggested to up my lexapro from 10 to 15 mg at night (I'm also taking trileptal 900 mg/day). Now, two days later I must be having a mixed episode, as I am not feeling my dark mood lift, and I am still weepy and on edge, but I am having some of the other manic symptoms I get like unable to sleep, fidgety, anable to focus, feeling like I will jump out of my skin. I'm at home trying to care for my three young children and I'm yelling and weeping and having horrible dark thoughts like thinking through suicide attempts, even though I don't think I could ever do that with children, it scares me when I think that way and I think that when I want to do it it is more of a way to explain to everyone how unbearable I feel and also because I know that would put me in a hospital and I would get a rest.
My pdoc is going away next week (maybe leaving as early as tomorrow), so if I call him I would have to do it tonight, I've been thinking about trying a new pdoc anyway, so maybe this is the chance to do it, I also have a therapist I could call.
There are too many factors and I'm feeling too unfocused to even make a decision. Any advice?
THank you.
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