Posted by toomuchpain on April 8, 2004, at 0:34:13
In reply to Re: back from the hospital (may trigger) » toomuchpain, posted by All Done on April 7, 2004, at 1:58:05
well it has been a few days since i posted in here i guess i have been getting things str8 in my head i am still kinda foggy and distoted if u know what i mean.... just to let everyone know that i wasnt trying to kill myself i was trying to kill the pain on the inside by hurting myself on the outside and on the inside.... the pain got way to much to handle and it just isnt getting better !!!
my former t called me and i spoke to him about what he is doing to me basically i told him that i couldnt handle that pain from him callin me and that he needs to stop ... he said he never meant to hurt me but he is worried about me ...i dont understand ... if he is so worried about me why cant he underdstand that he is the one causing my pain ....that if he would leave me alone and let me move on withm y life things would get better for me..he should have never started the termintion thing awhile ago if he was so worried about me dont u think ??
i dont know what i ever did to him or anyone else for that matter to make this happen to me !!!i never wanted to hurt him through the whole grivence thing... alll i wanted was for him to learn a lesson before he got his self in worst trouble ... i guess i am just a bad person .... i gave my all to him my trust my heart my soul... and he has torn it apart time after time ... it is not fair.... maybe i am just going crazy ... or maybe i already am .. who knows... i want to say that things are going to get better but for now i cant say that cus i think it is only going tog et worse
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