Posted by Chucky Adkins on April 7, 2004, at 4:40:18
In reply to Re: feelings about therapist » Chucky Adkins, posted by noa on April 6, 2004, at 9:09:11
My apologies to all that I may have offended for what may be considered by some as inappropriate language on the board. If it sent up a "red flag" to you then I assure you that you need not be alarmed. I have no secret agenda. In fact, if one could get pass the few poor words I chose, one would have read that I have alot of other cocerns that I felt for the first time I could tell others and maybe get some feedback that might help. Whatever the reasons, I needed help yesterday. As I write this, I'm getting upset for being misunderstood. Yesterday, I had a panic attack. When I have these attacks they are usually grounded in paranoia. It was exhausting. I went to see my psd and tried to see my T in the hopes of discussing all that I brought up on here with you all the other day. This was all prior to the attach. I saw her for a brief moment only to schedule to see her for sometime today. I wasn't really attracted to her when I saw her. Infact she seems so cold when we are not in session. I felt rejected when she said she couldn't meet with me yesterday. Maybe this had a little to do with the attack however when I have them they start from weeks earlier and slowly build momentum until they finally hit me uncontrollably. In other words, my paranoia begins with little things in my life that I don't even notice and the little things turn in to larger things and those into huge things until I'm in a full attack. The attacks make my little crush on the T seem so rediculous. I have to figure out how to deal with these attacks.
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