Posted by noa on March 31, 2004, at 5:25:09
In reply to Re: Should I tell him? » noa, posted by lonelygirl on March 29, 2004, at 20:03:28
YES, I hope so! I'm glad you are going to be more open and honest with your doctors.
Now you are an adult so you get to decide on your treatment. And this includes finding a different pdoc if you don't like working with the one your parents had picked.
I remember once when I was around your age, I was living in a group apartment and I used to sneak eat all the time when my roommates would be out. Then one day, I stopped myself and realized that my roommates couldn't care less what I did or did not eat. This behavior was a holdover from living at home with my parents, because my mother was extremely controlling with me over a lot of things, including what I was allowed to eat. So I developed this sneak eating habit of lurking until my mom went out of the house and then scrounging through the cupboards as quickly as possible and downing as much as I could without the impact on the food supply being too noticeable (e.g., not eating too much of any one thing at a time, but taking some from a lot of different things). It was a horrible way to eat--stuffing food fast without really savoring it. It was compulsive, and an attempt to deal with feeling deprived becuase of the way my mother tried to control me. It kind of reminded me of the feral behavior of this ex-stray cat I once had, who would sneak into the kitchen and steal whatever he could and then run off to the inaccessible corners of the house or yard to chow down.
Anyway, why am I telling you this? Because when I was your age I suddenly realized that I was still operating as though under my parents' control and came to see that I didn't have to anymore--that my decisions could be my own at that point. I think that is where you are now. You had some bad experiences with your parents forcing treatment on you, so you felt you had to take care of yourself by deceiving the adults involved. But now, you have more control as a young adult.
I'm so glad you are going to try to be more honest. Good luck!
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