Posted by deirdrehbrt on March 30, 2004, at 18:43:35
Well, I was in the hospital one more time. This time I was almost ready to do something drastic, but I, with the help of a very good friend, and my alters, I made it to the hospital before seriously harming myself.
When I got to the hospital, I had the usual physical tests. There were some surprises, My blood pressure was 160/100, my blood sugar was high, I was anemic, I seem to have poor circulation in my feet, I have a heart murmur that sounds like mitral valve prolapse, and my blood clots too fast.
The blood pressure was the part that gave the doc his biggest puzzle. I'm on estrogen for my gender issues and He called my endochrinologist to see if he might drastically reduce or eliminate the estrogen. This really bothered me. Anyway, I had my BP taken again and it was perfectly normal, and remained so for the rest of my stay.
He couldn't understand it and said he had no explanation. I reminded him that I do have DID and he said "When I was a resident, I wouldn't have believed it, but with what I've read recently, and with what I've seen, it could just be". It was something like that.... could have the quote slightly imprecise. This might not sound like much, but it was really important to me.
There was another very important thing that happened. I wrote an 11 page letter to my parents. It explained what all of my diagnoses are, and how these individual parts of my illness affect me. The part that is most frightening is when I described what Gender Identity Disorder is all about. I hope that they can understand it without taking it personally. The letter was mailed from the hospital.
I got home yesterday. I live upstairs from my parents, and I got their mail. I kept the letter, so that they wouldn't get it. After some prodding from a friend, I put the letter on their table. They are out at a meeting, so they haven't gotten it yet. I'm hoping that they don't read it until tomorrow. I'm kind of a wimp.
So, that's the short story. I'm back, and happy that I can hang out with such excellent people.
Dee.
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