Posted by toomuchpain on March 18, 2004, at 1:31:38
hey everyone it is just lil old me lol ...
i have a big problem that i have never had to deal with ... i started cutting ... i am trying to release the pain on the inside that my former t has induced on me ... it works for a lil bit and i feel better ... when i cut i am hoping in some way he is feeling the pain i am inducing on myself ...
i want him to feel the pain i feel ... i want him to suffer the way i am ... i dont want him to smile at me or even to speak my name .... when i see him i go str8 in the restroom and if i dont have anything to cut with i will go home and cut on my arms and my rist and my legs as i am doing this i am crying and asking the lord above why do i have to be in this pain and why aint he suffering ...
is this a cry for help ?
does this mean i want to kill myself ?
i am so confused .....
this is something i feel from a movie i saw GIRL INTERUPPTED
i know how it hurts to smile ...
i know what it is like to want to die
you try to fit i n but you can't....
how you hurt yourself on the outside to kill the thing on the inside ...
poster:toomuchpain
thread:325532
URL: http://www.dr-bob.org/babble/psycho/20040313/msgs/325532.html