Posted by antigua on March 6, 2004, at 19:02:55
In reply to Question for everyone on odd parenting, posted by Elle2021 on March 6, 2004, at 2:44:28
I sit here crying reading all these posts because they hit too close to home. I know I don't have to read them, and I was warned, but they bring up so many things. Red flags everywhere--but these are solely my opinions and experiences and I do not want anyone to think I am generalizing about their experiences. That's what makes all of this so hard.
Sitting on the lap in the bathroom--been there, didn't know why I was there but I was uncomfortable. Had to take a bath w/him too. Just the nakedness given my age was wrong. As a little girl I even knew it was wrong. As a mother, I could never give my kids their baths, but I didn't know why.
Hands in the waistband--that too. It started innocently enough like that but proceeded to become much more threatening and damaging. When I casually mentioned my father had done that, my T just about fell off her chair. I didn't know that was wrong, I had no basis of comparison.
False memories--I've believed in false memories forever, as an excuse not to face what I had to. My memories are all false, false, false and I can't survive any other way.
I will never get over this--or through it. Sorry guys, but to me I'm stuck -- if it walks like a duck, sounds like a duck, than it's a duck. I feel so bad for all the unprotected children who may never have a normal life.
I shouldn't post this, so please accept my apologies.
antigua
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