Posted by Racer on March 2, 2004, at 10:58:38
Right now, one of my highest priorities in therapy is to get out of a log jam style crisis situation. I'm being cryptic, I know, but I don't want to give the details. In general, the issue concerns other people within the same agency. In more particular terms, I don't want her to fix anything about it -- I just want her to listen to me and help me find out how accurate my perceptions might be. Specifically, I don't want her to tell me, "Yeah, so-and-so is like that," I just want her to help me explore what premises my conclusions are based on. Am I being over-reactive to coincidence? Am I not trusting my gut and talking myself out of what I feel, in a visceral sense, is real? I'm holding back from pdoc because of things that happened in my past, and that's one of the specific issues right now, but new Therp won't even begin to discuss it.
Mind you, this was our first session, so a lot of what we were talking about was surface stuff: "It says here you have a history of substance abuse?" "Not really, I tried recreational drugs as a teenager, and sat around stoned with my buddies in high school, but that was over 20 years ago. Since then, it's hard for me to take aspirin for a headache, and the average 13 year old would have a better chance of locating illegal drugs than I would." That sort of thing. (Sure made me wonder about the doctor who did my intake eval, since the question was, "Have you ever used recreational drugs?" Saying yes is accurate, in my case, I have. That's not to say that I am a recovering addict, or that I have a history of substance abuse. Black and white, too black and white.) (Hell, my generation's reaction to, "I tried pot once, but I didn't inhale" was "vote for a guy who couldn't even get that right?")
Anyway, has anyone else experience something like this? A topic that's pretty vital to you, which your therapist refuses to discuss? (And I don't mean she didn't follow up -- she interupted me and said she would not discuss it.)
Thanks!
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