Posted by KindGirl on February 27, 2004, at 16:21:19
In reply to Re: What issues are you holding back from your T? » tinydancer, posted by Fallen4myT on February 27, 2004, at 14:10:09
Hi Tiny
I just read your note about the thing that happened when you were 5. I am so sorry that happened...whatever it was, you were vague and I know it must be so hard to even write about it. Good for you for taking that risk. We have to get this stuff out in the light so it can be seen and healed and that is so so so so so hard, isn't it?In case you didn't realize...you were 5. You were 5. You were 5!!! You did nothing wrong but yet we shame ourselves mercilessly for what happened to us. It wasn't your fault but I know you are ashamed about all of it, and for that I am so mad about what happened to you. I am so mad at what happened to me too. I am totally screwed up from all the abuse....mental, emotional, neglect, sexual abuse by my teacher, sexual innuendo from my dad,inappropriate sexual behavior by my mother (telling me details of her sex life as if I was her therapist when I was like 9 years old....YUCK!!!!).
They are sickos, Dancer. I am so glad you are here and I am so glad you are sharing. I would love to read more of whatever you want to write. I know that the more we practice talking about it, no matter how hard it is, no matter how shaming it is, it gets easier and easier over time and the shame dies down a little. Maybe if you can keep opening up here about the things that are so painful you might be able to share with your T. someday. I don't know who you are, you are a name on a screen (yes I know you are another human being, but I say that so you don't shame yourself so much!)....so feel free to write whatever you want because I am here listening as are a lot of other people!!!
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