Posted by tinydancer on February 26, 2004, at 12:48:50
I'm feeling so confused right now. I don't feel like I know what is going on with me or anything else. I'm just hurting so bad right now. The only friend I have, whom I met through the psych ward (granted not the best place to meet dependable friends) keeps letting me down. I'm the caretaker and she is just the taker. She has BPD and is a control freak. I feel like I just sit there and jump whenever she says jump. She just ignores me for a few days and then suddenly pops up again. I try to show her that I care but she doesn't give any signs back. If I call her it just seems like I'm bothering her. It puts her in a difficult place, I know, when she is my only friend. I like her a lot and have a blast with her but I need to feel needed and important, and she doesn't make me feel that way!
I just feel so alone right now, and confused and want to hurt myself. I miss my T and wish somehow he could wave the magic wand and fix everything. I know I'm just rambling here it probably makes no sense but it is so scary to be in the place I am in now......
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thread:317921
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