Posted by Racer on February 25, 2004, at 1:18:03
In reply to therapy causing depression?, posted by crushedout on February 24, 2004, at 23:41:55
I don't know if it helps any, but I feel a similar "crash" after a lot of sessions. In my case, I've always avoided Ts I felt attracted to, because I know that the attraction would be counter-beneficial to me. (With someone I'm attracted to, I tend to try to be more attractive -- showing how "healthy" I am, rather than actually working on becoming healthy.)
For myself, I feel that drained, wrung out feeling because I'm processing such a huge well of pain, and conflict, and general ickiness. Could that be part of what you're feeling? Is it possible that you're experiencing a simlar pain as unrequited attraction to your T? Have you talked to your T about your attraction? If not, why don't you try bringing it up, if so, what was the response?
By the way, I'm going through something similar with my pdoc -- if anyone's looking for a Christmas present for me, two hours naked with him would be a good bet -- and have gone through a lot of questioning myself about whether or not he's the right choice for me. (Not that I've got much choice in the matter. And not that I'm complaining about having such a slurpy pdoc, either. I just wonder if it's such a good idea for me to be in treatment with someone it's so hard for me to be open with due to the attraction.) (Oh, yeah, and about half the attraction is that he's so quirky I figure he's got nearly as many psychological tangles as I have. I can amuse myself for hours thinking about some of them, they're so transparent, and I'm sure he's got no idea he's doing them.)
Therapy is hard anyway. I'm sorry it's so much harder for you because of this. Good luck in your search for a solution.
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