Posted by alexandra_k on February 14, 2004, at 1:09:57
In reply to Wanting to be Dead vs. Being suicidal, posted by EtktRide on February 13, 2004, at 16:38:50
Hello. I too feel like that. Most of the time I wish that I was dead, so mine isn't exactly episodic - but I do understand that wishing that one was dead, or just prefering that one was dead is different to having urges and specific plans to kill ones self.
It is worth talking about it with your clinicians as it sounds like you have an idea of the sort of situation that triggers that feeling for you, and you may be able to figure out what it is about that sort of situation and / or your interpretation of it that lead to your feeling that way.
I don't think that you are crazy at all. It may be worth examining why you would prefer to be dead sometimes. What I mean by that is that I kind of think of death as a neutrality of mood (to say the least) and so for me it signifies the end of fear, and pain. So maybe what I really want is for the pain to stop, and to feel less afraid.
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