Posted by rs on February 11, 2004, at 16:43:44
Not sure what to write. So much going on. Inside outside. Had therapy last evening and always so difficult. Many tears. Therapist is working with me staying present to talk as much as possible. Kept telling him do not want to be there and talk. Did everything possible to stay present and was able to talk some. Not good at all. Hurts so very much. T is wonderful. But still keep him at a distance due to not wanting to get hurt which know stops things. Just hurt so much when old T left a few years ago. Also times when called he takes for ever to call back or few times did not receive message. Last week that happend. Did not get message. Puts turmoil. He was upset and said he would take care of it. Last night he said do not hesitate and call if need anything. Right. He did help when leaving asked him please do not make me walk out there alone. Paranoid. He said of course not and walked behind and said right behind you. So very fourtante to have found him Gives much hope. But really do not think have any transference with him because of the way he does therapy. He is honest and answers anything. Think that helps much. Wish all of you had this t. And guess what he believes all. Am DID and hard to find someone that works with this. Thanks for listening. Just so very hard.
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