Posted by Pfinstegg on February 8, 2004, at 15:08:34
In reply to Re: Our Right Hemispheres (long) » Pfinstegg, posted by Crooked Heart on February 8, 2004, at 14:45:03
Thanks, Crooked Heart! What you told me was very helpful, and it's so encouraging to know that someone has faced all the fears and then really got better- also, that it continues to get better. We don't actually hear that too often on these boards! Also, you also used the couch- I thought I was the only one. Right now, I think it's better for me to sit up, but I hope to go back to using the couch more when this crisis is (hopefully) over, or at least has calmed down.
I am very open and honest with him about the amount of terror I am experiencing during sessions, and he is very warm, supportive and understanding. I think he feels that it is due to such poor mothering, and also to abuse by my father that I don't remember. I agree with him.But, in the present, it takes, for me also, a terror of being rejected again by him. Even though it's very painful, I think he feels it is something I have to go through with him, and he is trying very hard to let me know that he is really there for me.. The fears seem to have become concentrated to the sessions with him, with me acting, if not always feeling, pretty OK the rest of the time.
Anyway, thank you so much for taking the time to reply at such length, and to offer me such encouragement. It means so much.
Pfinstegg
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