Posted by Karen_kay on February 5, 2004, at 22:01:41
In reply to The last few days (long), posted by DaisyM on February 5, 2004, at 19:36:15
((((((((((((DAISY)))))))))))))))))))))))))))))
Extra big hug!!!!!!! I'm not really in a good place right now, well I'm in an excellent place right now, but I don't want to say the wrong thing so if I say ANYTHING at all wrong please know that I'm just not myself. And if, by the grace of God, I say just the pefect things, let's hope I stay this way forever :)
As for the flashback: I'm so sorry that happened. It's the most scary, horrible, frightening, dreadful thing to ever endure or experience. Well, almost the worst thing. And I wish that I could have been there to hold your hand, and take away your pain and confusion. They are scary and at this point I've only had one. One that I can't relate to a memory. And at this point, I most definetely do not EVER want to either... But, I know that memory has to exist somewhere...
Try not to look at all the negative stuff on the net about false memory, abandonment, ect... I did that as well, and that was the final straw to convince myself that these memories and the flash back wasn't true. It was just a figment of my imagination. Trust yourself and trust me that everything is going to turn out just fine. I wouldn't say it if it wasn't true.
Maybe the flashback can be a way of your mind telling yourself that it's really time for you to start healing. I think that it was my mind's way of saying, "Look kid, you've been fooling youself long enough. You want proof, you've got it."
It takes time. I wish I could wave a magic wand over your head (and mine second, I would heal you first my dear, that I promise) and make everything better. But I can't. But you have all the tools you need right there. You have such a wonderful therapist who is willing to help you. And you are so very great. And you bake yummy cookies. I just know everything is going to turn out great for you (and me too), I just can't tell you when. I think that part is left up to us. I'm hoping that I can heal a bit faster.
poster:Karen_kay
thread:309943
URL: http://www.dr-bob.org/babble/psycho/20040131/msgs/310011.html