Posted by Penny on January 29, 2004, at 11:07:50
In reply to do i dare?, posted by justyourlaugh on January 29, 2004, at 9:18:22
(((JYL)))
Several things come to mind...
First of all - you asked, 'am i "off base"' - and I would have to say, not at all dear!
Regardless of whether or not childhood issues are a factor with you or not, if you don't want to work on them, then it won't do any good for him to push you in that direction! As for the talking to a teddy bear thing, I, too, can't get into that. My former T wanted me to carry a pic of myself when I was 3-4 years old with me, so that when I started negative self-talk I could pull it out and remind myself that I am not bad - look how I was when I was innocent? I saw her point, but it didn't work well for me. I don't like my inner child (!!!) so trying to be nice to her and connect with her doesn't work all too well. It wasn't a bad idea, and it might work for some, but it didn't for me, and that's okay. My current T doesn't talk about the 'inner child'.
When you say he doesn't agree with your pdoc's dx, how different is his diagnosis?
And pardon me for not recalling, but what do you think of your pdoc? Do you trust him?
The medicine thing with your hubby - I know we've talked about this before - he doesn't seem to understand where you are, what you are going through. If YOU feel the meds are helping, then tell him that THAT topic (the topic of your taking meds) is not up for discussion. Try to trust your own instincts. I know it's hard, especially when the meds aren't really working that well and you start wondering whether they ever will, but do you recall what it was like before the meds? For me, it was bad. And I've gone through med-free periods, breaks, so to speak, and that didn't work either. Surely, some folks can do without meds - I'm happy for them - but many of us just can't. There's no question. I try to remind myself that if I am dealing better WITH the meds than WITHOUT, then clearly they're doing something, even if what they're doing isn't good enough. Something, IMO, is better than nothing. If it keeps you hanging in there today, then deal with tomorrow when it gets here.
I think you should be honest with your T about how he made you feel. Tell him that you've had enough of childhood issues and you don't want to discuss that anymore.
What kind of residential home? What does he think that would achieve?
I think YOU have to have your best interest at heart - I wish I could tell you who to trust, but I don't know the answer, other than to say that you really need to try to trust YOURSELF.
I think you do know what is in your best interest, JYL. Your post here is clear and purposeful, so you see the problem and you are searching for the solution - you do know what you want for yourself. Stick with that.
Sorry if I'm not much help.
Many hugs and hand holding, if you need it.
P
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