Posted by gardenergirl on January 26, 2004, at 15:12:00
In reply to Thinking too much about therapy.., posted by Asya on January 26, 2004, at 14:50:39
Asya,
I am also a grad student, and it would seem like we are high functioning, easy clients. In many cases, I think we could be. But I am coming to the realization that I have developed a maternal (or perhaps paternal, I'll try to find out next session) transference. I am a psychology trainee, and going into therapy, I thought "that won't happen to me" as if it was a bad thing. But I did not want to feel vulnerable or dependent. I wanted to view my therapy as something that I was doing for myself as self-improvement. Which it is, but I am finding it to be a necessary thing right now. Over Christmas break I became more depressed, which may be related to not having sessions.Anyway, I do similar things. I never come with an agenda, but for tomorrow's session, I feel like I have a million things to say, and I had to write them down, even in the order I wanted to address them. (He'll be lucky to get a word in.) I wanted to call him to tell him about accomplishing a major thing, but freaked out because it seemed so like a daughter. I made myself wait until tomorrow, but I feel ready to talk about it.
I feel for you. I don't have to worry about insurance issues as my therapy is through campus. Perhaps your school offers therapy if you want to continue someday? But the attachment is normal. It likely feels scary because it's different from what we are used to and because you know it will end in the near future.
Good luck to you. I bet if she isn't aware, she at least will be fine with it. I would recommend talking to her about it. I know I am going to brave this tomorrow. I'll let you know how it goes.
gg
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