Posted by Joslynn on January 21, 2004, at 11:42:57
In reply to Re: Ordinary Phone Call Fraught w/ Transference » Joslynn, posted by judy1 on January 21, 2004, at 11:15:52
Thanks Penny and Judy!
To answer Judy's question, I have been in therapy for a couple years. So you would think I would be past the honeymoon stage! I seem to go into and out of the honeymoon phase. I guess I have return tickets.
I think a lot of the transference comes from issues with my father, who had his own problems with alcoholism, depression and anger when I was growing up. So the transference with male pdoc is much more tender and intense than with female therp, who I see more as a very supportive, wise older lady who can cheer me on.
With him, I do feel like it gets to deeper emotions in a way that's hard to explain.
Then I feel like plotting ways I can leave him or make him wonder about me, make him post about me in some therapist psycho babble, make him scratch his head wondering, where I went, what HE did wrong, heh heh heh.
I know intellectually that it is because I felt emotionally abandoned when my Dad turned away from the family and towards the bottle. I want some of that control back. Intellectually, I know this, yet emotionally, it plays itself out in such a visceral way with pdoc, affecting my heartbeat and stomach and everything during interactions, it's hard to separate my mind from my heart.
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