Posted by DaisyM on January 18, 2004, at 20:25:53
In reply to suicide ideation, posted by Medusa on January 18, 2004, at 5:57:19
I haven't had a great deal of experience with this, I actually have more suicide dreams than actual conscious thought. However, I did talk to my Therapist about them and it, and he told me a couple of things that helped:
1) I wanted the pain to die, not me. That is actually healthy.2) I was actually taking on someone elses despair and added to my own it was overwhelming. I needed to look at the situation and indivduals and try to step back.
3) I needed to allow that a part of me was dieing...as I was changing in therapy and letting go of some really old and ugly stuff. So not to fight it so much. Just keep telling him about my thoughts.
He had me write down all the ways I was dreaming/thinking about, and then really follow the conclusions. It was interesting, (I think it scared him how clear I was and how much access to things I truly had) because I did have a workable plan. I also have kids and am catholic, which balances things on the possibility scale.
I'll think more about how I stopped the dreams and if I remember how that channel switching occured, I'll post it.
Please hang in there. I'm glad you seem to see it for what it is.
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