Posted by tabitha on January 16, 2004, at 4:34:59
I had some therapy breakthroughs this week in my group and individual sessions. My mind is sort of blown. I'm all worked up and feel on the verge of collapse. It's so much to absorb. I had some patterns exposed to me.. and I finally get it. I can see what my therapist sees about my worst defenses with people. She wasn't speaking Martian or trying to brainwash me after all.. It's like I had a Hellen Keller moment. I still need to let the patterns go and practice new ways of thinking and relating, but I finally have hope it will go somewhere.
I have hope I can get healing in my intimate relationships, and more healing in my self-relationship. I can almost see the end... some point where I feel whole, and able to be among people without feeling so bottled up and repressed.. able to navigate relationships without getting hurt and angered so easily.. better able to see people with compassion.. able to accept and forgive myself more readily.
It's the therapy promised land.. just coming into view out there on the horizon.
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