Posted by evercare on December 31, 2003, at 11:26:54
From all the pain i have experience in my life, I seem to have put up walls not only from the pain, but from the good stuff too. I have an inability to feel anything. The world could all be killed except me and i would not even care. What can i do???However for the past couple years i have fallen in love with an amazing man and when i think about how much i love him and how much he loves me, i cry, happy tears. Yet for some reason i feel like i deserve pain. I keep inventing new ways and reasons to push him away and i keep hurting him. He sees right through them and stays with me, but i dont want to hurt him anymore! what can i do!!!
poster:evercare
thread:295101
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