Posted by pegasus on December 18, 2003, at 12:51:59
I've been lurking here for a while, and I've learned so much about therapy, and a lot of my own experiences have been validated. So thanks already!
I've been in therapy for two years, with a really great therpist who is just right for me. I've definitely found the whole experience to be incredibly frustrating and scary, but also freeing and really helpful. About two months ago my therapist told me that he was moving to another state and that he'd be closing his practice here at the end of the year. Gack! I totally fell apart and started sending him a lot of emails with my angry and hurt feelings, and also concern for him and hopes for a good future etc. It's so mixed up. Our sessions have been very off and on. Sometimes they're great and supportive and we've had some wonderful reviews of our work together. And sometimes I just get overwhelmed with feeling abandoned and cry the whole session. It's been pretty rough for both of us.
So, my last session is next Tuesday. And I also have a session on Friday (tomorrow). I'm totally not ready for it. I keep asking him to help me plan our last session, but he just wants it to be whatever we need most at that time. Ack! I'm just going to sob the whole 50 minutes, and then panic afterwards. I've considered not going, but that would also suck. And it's kind of passive aggressive. So, I'm grinding my teeth down every night and crying at all kinds of odd moments, and I feel like an idiot. I keep thinking how I trusted him to still be there if I told him my bad stuff, and now he's leaving and I have no control over that. Any words of advice would be welcome.
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