Posted by fallsfall on December 17, 2003, at 22:47:16
In reply to Put it away, yeah, right..., posted by fallsfall on December 17, 2003, at 7:36:57
Thank you all for your suggestions. I worked 5 hours today, and that was helpful. I couldn't summarize even if I wanted to, so let me address each post:
Lookdownfish: Yes, you are right. This is a very difficult and important topic. I really want to work on this, because I know things will be better when I'm done.
Dinah: I don't think he would mind if I called, but *I* think I've been calling a lot, so I really wanted to get through this period by myself. He doesn't seem to want to set up any extra sessions (though I haven't expressly asked) - I figure that I'll be doing well if I can get 2 sessions each week in December.
Putting it away is often helpful for me. But usually putting the topic away puts the feelings away, too. I'll see what he says tomorrow. He does know that I'm hurting a lot, and he does want to help.
naiad: Yes, he wants to be there when I think about it. And I like the idea of him being there. It's just a question of managing the emotions until I can see him.
Karen: Distraction works to a certain extent, but I am using so much energy burying the issue that I don't have much brain power to use for the distraction. Xmas shopping was too much yesterday. I did about an hour today and I could tell that I was starting to lose it.I have Ativan. And my pdoc told me yesterday that I could take it during the day if I need to (it was only for night time before). I need to find out if I can drive when I've taken it. I'll try 1/2 a pill to start.
I wish I could talk about it - but talking isn't "putting it away"... I see him tomorrow - we'll talk about a strategy.
Daisy: I do try the distraction thing, and sometimes it works pretty well. I agree with your suggestion of spending time with people who you don't want to talk to about the issue. That's what it is like when I go to work (but last Friday I had to ask my boss not to go home sick because I was afraid I would burst into tears behind the Circulation Desk...).
I don't want to call him this time. I feel like I call too much. He is helpful in one regard - it helps me to know that he knows what is happening. But he always says that we'll talk about it at the next session. So if that's what he's going to tell me, I can tell myself that. Sometimes I want his opinion on whether I should think about it or not. This time he told me that before I left his office. He said "Don't think about it". So, I guess I just have to follow his suggestion.
All: Thank you so much for your support. It really is helpful, and I don't feel so alone. We'll all have a party when this issue is resolved, OK? I'll bake the Therapist Cookies.
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