Posted by DaisyM on November 23, 2003, at 17:56:08
In reply to Re: Another question, posted by fallsfall on November 23, 2003, at 10:49:47
<<I hate it when they say "You are more competent than you think you are". It makes me feel like I'm not trying, but in reality I think that there is something getting in the way of that competence that they don't understand yet.
>>> See, I wonder all the time about this competent thing. I am totally competent, doing my job, being the mom, etc. (OK, so the wife thing has gone down hill a bit, a person can only do so much). But being TOTALLY competent was what sent me into overwhelm last April. It is the motivation and joy that I am missing. And self-confidence. I can't get excited about anything, or sustain a good mood. And I started having suicidal dreams, which scared me. But you would never know it to look at me: suits on with stockings and heels, makeup, hair's done...it is all automatic.
I don't know whether to SAY this to my Therapist or not. I don't know how to prove that I am an emotional wreck yet intellectually OK. How can this be?? I was thinking today about how many times I've had a melt down and told him in the past few months. Prior, I wouldn't have told anyone, I would have just moved on. Arrggh.
I've spent the better part of the last month trying to get a handle on this very thing: is he still ok treating me? - does he think I need treatment or just support? (LOL - hmmm, 3 visits and 2 phone calls one week, and I still wonder if this is "just" support!)What next?
poster:DaisyM
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