Posted by Penny on November 20, 2003, at 14:57:25
In reply to Re: When did therapy become so complicated??? (long), posted by zenn4 on November 20, 2003, at 14:21:07
It's funny, because I have been a bit frustrated with my pdoc lately too, and I told her about that and she said, "Well, you need to talk to him about it - he's not going to stop treating you for being upset with him," and I told her that I know that. I ended up talking to him about the situation, but not telling him that I was somewhat frustrated with him.
And she's told me before that if she says something that I take a certain way - if she says something that I see as hurtful or whatever - that I need to tell her, because chances are it's not how she meant it. And, as I said, I know that it's not that she doesn't want to help me, but I'm afraid that she can't, that she's realizing that she can't, and that that means she's going to refer me on. Even though she's never hinted at that at all.
Along those lines - perhaps I am projecting some of my frustration at myself onto her? Or perhaps I'm realizing that maybe she's not as good a therapist as I want to believe she is, and that her approach isn't working with me? I don't mean that she's not a good therapist, but maybe I need something different. I think back to my former T, who I thought at the time was pretty close to perfect, and realize that she was far from it (not that she wasn't good also). That there were many things about her approach that didn't work for me, but I had nothing to compare it to, so I didn't know to do anything. And I like some of how my current T handles things, but sometimes I think we just get too off track and the session time is wasted. At the same time, I don't relish the thought of leaving emotionally drained. It's just all so frustrating. I don't know if I want to do this at all.
I don't know. ARGH.
P
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