Posted by justyourlaugh on November 20, 2003, at 13:28:31
went hours earliy to sw appointment,,had no where to go?
sat in the bathroom of the hospital for 30minutes before arriving at his door way too earily..
i came feeling like dead weight..
i left with a small skip in my step..
he said things to me that were never said..
i feel motivated...i painted and cleaned the kitchen...now i am drinking?
why?
because its there?
because i dont want to lose this odd yet beautiful feeling...because if i allow myself to be open to happiness maybe the demonds will be released too?
i want "it" so bad,,i feel it is close..so very near...
what is "it"?
what wrong with me?
sorry this post is turning into a journaling rant...
poster:justyourlaugh
thread:281702
URL: http://www.dr-bob.org/babble/psycho/20031114/msgs/281702.html