Posted by shar on November 17, 2003, at 20:19:46
In reply to Re: Journey (pretty long) » shar, posted by karen_kay on November 17, 2003, at 17:19:40
> Forgive me if I sound a little bitter, but I really don't feel that I am on a journey with anyone but myself.
...............well, there are those therapists out there....
I feel that I am little more than a name in a planner, a comedic relief, and a check to my therapist. I realize that this is an opportunity for both of us to learn, as I am very sure we both have.
..................K, please give yourself a break from the 'comedic relief' genre...unless you are particularly funny, that is......
But, in this process I am learning also what it is like to almost depend on another person to "make me better" and hope they can pull through. I realize that I too must do my part.
.........I agree. It is hard work. But I truly in my heart doubt that your issues are only a superficial 50 minutes for your T to get through. If so, I would encourage you to find a T you could have a better connection with.
But, if I were to quit therapy today, I hardly doubt my therapist would think to even pick up the phone and ask why I decided to quit. It's not that he's not a great therapist, he really is. Maybe I'm just a cynic. But, he's not there when I really break down. So, he's not really there for the whole journey. Sorry to ruin the post, it is a lovely post. This is just how I feel about it, though I wish I felt like everyone else :(
..................K, this sounds like questions you ought to be asking him, if you really want to know. Either he needs to be there for the whole journey, or part of the journey is going it alone when he's not!
.........I doubt this will help, but I've wept in my car after many a session with my T (over a decade). I believe sometimes we may have to feel totally convoluted and messed up to deal with the stuff that goes on in our lil heads. I've left many a time feeling unloved, and I ATTACK IT the next time. How could you not love me??????????? How could you not care how I fare out there in the real world????????
I don't always get the answers I want to hear, but....then, that's part of the process.
xoxo
Shar
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