Posted by LynneDa on October 29, 2003, at 9:11:59
In reply to please answer/response, posted by helenag on October 28, 2003, at 21:00:56
> yes, I know honesty is the best policy...as I sit here, I feel like a slime ball. This is an area that my pdoc and I have gone around and around about since we have known eachother. However, whatever caused the mental problems was not the booze because I had months long where there was no drinking and even when I was, it was only one or two and it was sporadic. He would tell me that I wasn't accepting the fact of being alcoholic and that was causing conflict within me (to a point that is true)
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> If I tell him, what I fear is that he will consequence me by returning me to some form of treatment part-time, refuse to see me again, or whatever.... I am left feeling like I am some sort of pathetic hopeless drunk, and I am not. In fact, the only time I had trouble with booze was when I had emotional mental trouble to start with.
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> I am rambling...and confused. thanks for listening. I don't dare tell anyone about this.
> helen.Helen - Here's another thought for you. Your therapist is just one person. Even though he's helped you and been through so much with you, etc., he is just still one man in this world. What YOU think and know about yourself is the most important thing!!! If you know that you're not a *slime ball* and you think you're on the right track with the new meds you're on, then you go for it. A good therapist should know that guilting you is not going to help support you!
My ex is an alcoholic and gambling addict - and he doesn't drink all the time. It's an addiction and he controls it somewhat. He's also has Depression and OCD. He's on meds - sometimes. The drinking was a coping mechanism, escapism, etc. His guilt when he drank was enormous, so I understand that a bit.
It's up to you. Do you want to stop drinking all together or do you think you can get better and be a happy balanced person while still having a drink now and then. It is YOUR choice. If you know it brings you some sort of conflict, then you choose to get help to never drink. If you're not ready for that, then you need to keep working on the sides of your problems that you can effectively do something about.
Hope that helps a bit. Stay strong and do what you know is right for yourself. You will feel better in the long run!!
~Lynne
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