Posted by thistlethorn on October 28, 2003, at 14:23:50
In reply to Re: Thought blocking » thistlethorn, posted by cubic_me on October 27, 2003, at 6:31:04
cubic_me, you describe the experience so well. It IS isolating ... and baffling and intensely, intensely frustrating.
For me, just having another person's undivided attention can be terrifying. It's almost as if I revert to some lower animal form: I am alive. My heart keeps beating. My external senses keep working. But all that is human inside me takes flight, and I can't feel anything but fear. At these times, thinking, let alone speaking, becomes nearly impossible.
I once heard the actor Anthony Hopkins describe a character he had played in a movie as someone who, when he walked into a room, the room became emptier. That is how, I imagine, people would describe me, too.
Do you have any idea why your mind closes itself off like this?
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