Posted by Poet on October 24, 2003, at 9:25:14
I read my therapist what I wrote about why I disliked my inner child and how I felt I abandoned her. She said that I didn't really abandon her, I just pushed her away because she reminded me that I didn't get the love and attention I deserved as a child.
Then we did guided imagery: my T told Big Me to imagine I'm watching Little Me playing with a favorite toy. T said, go sit next to her, play with her. I said, I can't. She said, then I'll go sit with her. Imagine I'm sitting right next to her, if she wants she can come on my lap (I couldn't imagine that!) I'm reading her a story...Big Me started crying- a first in therapy.
T said to remember the image and feeling of warmth and caring and keep it inside me where I can call it up when I need it.
I'm sorry that I couldn't imagine Little Me sitting in my T's lap, though snuggling up next to her felt so good. I think my problem is that Big Me wants to push Little Me out of the way, I want to be on her lap and be read to.
Poet
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