Posted by Tabitha on October 14, 2003, at 23:56:35
My group session tonight was not comfortable. One woman brought up a reaction to me, and I ended up feeling accused of bragging about my intelligence (which isn't really what she said at all), one woman was sorry that another didn't get time to share, and I felt it was my fault because I used the last 10 minutes of the session. I don't have any real reason to think anyone blamed me. So I came out fighting off these impressions, both of which made me feel bad, and I can rationally see weren't even necessarily true.
I also went in and found myself thinking things like "hey, it's like we're all just trained to speak in some weird therapy language here. It seems so fake. I'm tired of hearing about ever little feeling and reaction, and everyone's theories about how it relates to their childhood. Blah. Can't we talk about something else?" I suppose that's my resistance, but knowing that doesn't make me able to change it. I'm afraid my critical thoughts will come out and I'll alienate the group, and it will get even more unpleasant, and snowball.
Any experiences with this kind of stuff?
poster:Tabitha
thread:269532
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