Posted by Medusa on October 7, 2003, at 15:25:20
In reply to Re: Therapy, Observed » Medusa, posted by Poet on October 6, 2003, at 13:01:21
Well, either I can't count or there were five trainees PLUS trainers in the observation room. And the feedback earpiece the therapist wore was an interesting interruption. She would nod and say uh huh, uh huh - and not be talking to me, but to the supervisor.
We didn't get to any therapy, though - she had to take down my entire circus performance tour of therapists. I left a few out, but I really couldn't remember every encounter off the cuff like that. Yes, I'm a promiscuous therapy-ee.
She said that her goal is for this to be my last therapy. I think that's not unrealistic, in some ways - I've learned to get specific help in specific ways, to MAKE some things better by gaining skills that no amount of understanding and talk from a therapist could give me. Such as preparing a toast with a rhetoric coach rather than fretting for weeks about the event (then-inlaw snakepit) where I had to give it. I have an appointment with a career coach, which should be results-oriented. I want to work more on the DBT skills, whether on-line, in a group, or with an individual therapist. I'm getting "mothering" I never got by paying for services like a weekly cleaning person and taxis when it's storming, and skills-training like the rhetoric coach. Did I mention that after the systems/short-term therapy I did last winter, where the therapist told me I wasn't sufficiently feminine, that I spent what formerly went to her fee on really, really nice underthings? It's time for another round of THAT kind of therapy!
I really don't want to go on being wrapped up in family problems for the rest of my life, or even the next two years. So this short-term, systemic approach - which has moved mountains in my one experience with it - is appealing. I know that I have to get my own compassion etc elsewhere - I don't expect that from these therapists. I *am* pretty sure that they could get a _lot_ of my stuck points un-stuck.
I have my next appointment in three weeks. We'll see.
Thanks for the tips and encouragement before my session.
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