Posted by Poet on October 3, 2003, at 17:16:13
In reply to confused about what is good...may trigger*****, posted by justyourlaugh on October 3, 2003, at 15:53:41
Hi Justyourlaugh,
Stay away from those knives, except for cutting food. Cutting yourself will only bring physical pain and deep down you know it won't release the emotional stuff. Anymore than when I stuff my face with food and then stick my fingers down my throat.
I didn't start therapy because I am an ex-bulimic. It didn't even come out until my sixth session. I pretty well keep myself under control by telling myself over and over that eating and purging won't get rid of what is really hurting me.
Talk can trigger my bulimia: if I get upset over something, I still reach for that comfort food. But I do it less often since I've been in therapy even if it isn't the issue I went in with.
I think that what you feel is similar to me. Your brain tricks you into thinking that the knives, like eating way too much food, will let the pain out.
They won't and keep telling yourself that. I'm going to stick with therapy, try to stick with it, too. You are brave to want to face those demons.
Poet
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