Posted by HannahW on October 3, 2003, at 14:50:04
Sometimes I feel like I'd really like to cry, but not because of any specific event. Just because I feel lonely or bad in some other way. Last night was one of those nights, so I shut myself in my bedroom and laid down to cry. But I couldn't, and that's so frequently the case. I managed to eke out a few tears, but I couldn't cry the heaving, cleansing sobs that I wanted to. There seems to be something about being alone that makes me incapable of crying. I don't know if it's because I feel it's a waste of time, or if it's because there's no one there to comfort me, or if it's just because I hate to contort my face into that crying shape. What's funny is that I used to be able to cry ONLY when I was alone. Now the only time I can cry is when my husband is there, and sometimes not even then. I can't cry in front of anyone else, including my therapist, and rarely even feel the need to cry with anyone else. I'm an impenetrable emotional rock. We're working on that in therapy. :)
But that doesn't explain why I can't cry when I want to. Does anyone else have this problem?
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