Posted by Sonine on September 19, 2003, at 20:59:23
I'm 21 and I am not myself anymore. I really have no idea where to turn to or what has happened to me, so I don't know. I have lived a life with typical and atypical life events, but nothing horribly traumatic. The problem is that me a year ago is drastically different from me now. I am in my final year of college and I have quit caring about studying, but I am instensly afraid of failing and not finding a job. On the rare occasion that I do study, I have the hardest time concentrating or even really understanding what I'm reading.
I used to go out and party a lot, but I not I spend most of my nights with cable tv and my computer. I always make plans with my friends that fall through or I might just cancel on them altogether.
I have gained almost 20 pounds since all of this, and I cannot control my eating habits. I don't eat a sensible dinner I eat everything I can get my hands on for dinner. I rarely have enough energy to exercise let along study. I have started taking extensive care of my body, hygenically. I wash my face twice a day and take care of any blemishes with a variety of face creams. I am very careful about my nails... keeping them neatly filed and clean.
I used to volunteer at a couple of after school programs, but after my classes I just don't have the energy for anything but going home now.
I am starting a new part time job soon, and I don't know how I am ever going to find the energy to do this and school-- considering I'm not even working hard at school right now.
I saw a therapist this summer who wanted me to see a psychiatrist and go on prozac. I don't want to go on prozac unless it's the only thing that will make me feel better. I just can't tell what's going on right now. I know I'm not confident or very happy anymore, and I can't tell if this is depression, senioritis, or what.
poster:Sonine
thread:261773
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