Posted by bookgurl99 on September 16, 2003, at 15:46:23
Hey everyone,
I've been seeing a great therapist for symptoms of obsession, anxiety, and depression for the past three years. When I began seeing her, I was going through a horrid breakup and was very socially phobic.
Time and treatment have made me much stronger. I "have a life" now where I didn't before. Except for stress-induced flare-ups, the anxiety and obsessiveness are doing better.
Every time I've gone into session lately, though, I've melted and decided to put off quitting until the next session. Why? Because I'm having fun, and I really like my therapist as a person.
However, I'm realizing that I have good friends to talk to about the things I now discuss with my therapist -- now that my healing is really well under route. And I can't keep going just so she can be my friend, y'know?
So because I keep melting in her presence, today I called and left a message on her voice mail, cancelling our appointment. I said it's been a good experience, that I've learned and healed a lot in our time together, but I'm ready to move on. I said that if she wants to make one last appointment to discuss my leaving therapy, I will be willing to come in and do that.
After I got off the phone, I found myself overwhelmed with tears. This really surprised me. I feel like this is a good choice, and it's a good thing that I can move on -- I'm even glad that in a way, I'm 'opening space' for someone else who needs her as a therapist to get in and see her.
Why am I crying like this? It is so weird. I had sentimental feelings about therapy that I wasn't even aware of. Strange?
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